Impromtu beach trip

Well, it's the weekend again...I have really been not liking the weekends much lately, mostly because matt works 3 12hour shifts friday, sat, and sun. So, I play single mom these days. Today I was not going to let me get it down though. I decided to take all 3 kiddos to the beach. On my own. Now, I was pretty nervous about what could happen....I mean that's a pretty scary place to have to keep only your set of eyes on 3 active kids. So, I layed down the ground rules, packed up some dinner and beach toys, and set off for hunington beach. I have to admit...the kids were great, and we had a wonderful time! Max loved the sand, and the girls loved to walk along the edge of the water collecting shells. The hardest part was trying to get everything packed back up and sand off the kids to go home! I sure give you single moms credit!!

Another bump in the road

I have not written in awhile...well, my computer had been down, but I have also been so busy with the kids lately that when they go to bed, all I want to do is sleep! I have a doctors appointment tommorrow with maddie to check on the hordeoula in her eye. I have a feeling they are going to suggest surgery...we have tried everything else and it still looks horrible! I am pretty nervous about them putting her to sleep because of her asthma...Has anyone had any experience with this?I have heard they have a hard time coming out of it...Let's see...what else has happened these last few weeks...Mckenzie has made the level 6 gymnastics team and is very excited...more practice but she is ready for it. Max has given up the bottle...he is getting to be such a big boy!! I am working on the Cinderella show for the red shoes dance theater...so excited to be working in the dance world again!! Well, my responsible little maddie just came out of her bed to inform me that I forgot to give her her eyedrops before bed, so off I go........

At a crossroads....

I have had so much on my mind latley, that it seems to be consuming all my thoughts and energy....I am going to write them out in hopes that I will let some of it go...

*I hate waiting to see whats going to happen with the whole house thing...I know that at some point in the next month or so, we will get out tax refund (our downpayment) and should be able to be preapproved for a loan.

*Until the house thing falls through, and I know where we are going to be living, I can not persue any more kids to watch. When summer is over, the 2 little girls that I have been watching will be in first grade, and I will not really be needed anymore :( So I need to find someone new!

*I have been really unhappy about myself lately...about how I look (never did lose that baby weight!) wish I had money for a total makeover on my wardrobe too... I have also been not liking all the yelling that I am doing to the kids...seems like my patience has been shot to hell!

On a positive note, Matt and I have gotten alot done around the house latley (cleaning, organizing in prep for a move). And the kids and I have gotten outside a little more..finally this weather may break! Maddie is learning to ride her bike without training wheels, and max totally loves bike rides...he stands at the garage door screaming bike ride more! Hopefully I will get the patience to get through the next month or so, and things will fall into place...